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The Forever Process Of Self-Esteem
For a good while, I thought getting high self-esteem was like a video game. You start off trying to get used to the controls. Once you get comfortable with those, you start to play the self-esteem game. You’ll have some really tough levels that will have you to play it over many times until you get the right rhythm to beat those missions.
As you play through it, you get more confident in beating the game. You eventually know you’re going to have your self-esteem at 100% by the time you finish the whole game. At least that was my mindset in achieving high self-esteem.
The Long Road
For a few years now, I had thought I had finally conquered my own game of getting good self-esteem. From the early years of your long-ago middle school classmates tormenting you every day to having mean spirited adults put a dent in your confidence without them realizing it. Even family members knocking your self-esteem down with their nasty words.
To rise from all of those challenges has been a long mental battle. I worked relentlessly by pretending my self-esteem was great (even though it wasn’t). I felt an empty hole inside of me for a long time. It was like my soul wasn’t here while everyone else was living and enjoying their lives.
